Time for change

Why am I sat here writing this blog?

Because “Today is the first day of the rest of my life” Well in truth 25/10/2016 was.

That was the day I decided that I had spent far too long dreaming about what I could do to improve my life. It was time to start DOING something about it. But I’m still not sure how I am going to do it, the difference is I know I CAN do it. To what level I can improve it I also don’t know, but this will be the story of my journey.

Why am I sat here writing this blog?

Because “Today is the first day of the rest of my life” Well in truth  25/10/2016 was.

That was the day I decided that I had spent far too long dreaming about what I could do to improve my life. It was time to start DOING something about it. But I’m still not sure how I am going to do it, the difference is I know I CAN do it. To what level I can improve it I also don’t know, but this will be the story of my journey.

So maybe I should tell you just a little about me.

I am a divorced mum to three grown up children. I work at a 9 to 5 job in an office with 4 weeks holiday a year. 4 weeks? 4 weeks every year where I get to do what I want to do. 4 weeks when I am not tied to getting up at a certain time to go and spend 8 hours making money for my boss and leaving only when that clock on the wall says I can.

4 weeks mmmm, and out of that 4 weeks there are the days when you “have” to do the things you have to do rather than what you want to do. The friend’s wedding that is on a week day. Not that I wouldn’t want to go to your wedding dear friend but did it have to be on a week day? That means I have to use one of my precious holiday days. (Note to anyone reading this that is planning a wedding, think of your working friends before choosing a mid-week day) Sorry I know it’s cheaper to get married mid week.. Then my dear mum needs taking to hospital for an operation and of course I will take her and be there for her, but there we go that’s another of my precious holiday days gone.

So I’ve been wondering for a long time why some people seem to be the “lucky ones”

You know what I mean, the people you don’t necessarily know but you see, driving that nice car, sitting on their balcony’s in their lovely houses. People who don’t seem to need to work but still have fabulous holidays and clothes. And have you noticed how they are surrounded by friends who seem to be “lucky people” also.

And I’ve been wondering and feeling bitter about why that isn’t me ? I have worked hard, harder probably than them.Worked while bringing up 3 children and supporting my then husband to build a business from scratch, and it was hard, very hard at times. I’ve picked myself up after getting divorced after 25 years of marriage. I have started again with a mortgage that will take me until retirement to repay to build a home for myself and my family.

I’ve asked myself so many times are they just better people than me? But I have always known that no they are not better than me, just born lucky I guess….Or so I thought….

I have come up with so many ideas of how I could improve my life, add some wealth to my humble bank account. But they were only ideas and nothing that would really give me what I want.

What do I want? I don’t think I am being greedy in wanting to wake up, sit on my balcony (a balcony like those “lucky”people have in a big house would be good) but just a small balcony that looks out on the sea and is in the warm sun will do fine. And then the thing I want even more than that? To not have to get in my car and drive to work for someone else. I don’t mind still working, I think it’s good for the brain, but to work in my time, when I want and for me to get the rewards.

Until 25/10/2016 I didn’t know what I wanted I just knew I wanted and deserved more.

So what happened on that day? I met someone who talked the same talk as me, understood that I wanted more but didn’t know how to achieve it. And they told me that I could achieve it if I wanted it enough. I think it was the first time someone had really believed in me and told me I could achieve my dreams.

They also told me “Today is the first day of the rest of your life”

So, that is why I am here writing this blog. One of the things they suggested I do is reach out to like-minded people. And here I am, if your reading this I guess you might be feeling the same as me?

I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, But I do know I feel more positive about it.

Next time I will tell you how things have started to change already. Only small changes, but changes for the better.

Wishing you all a better happier tomorrow.

Author: Faith

I am a woman, a friend, a believer, and a dreamer, but one thing I will be always and forever is a mother.

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